Dry land training in Florida

Zooming down on the bobsled in Thredbo!

Manly Jetz in NZ, Ben Williams, James Beasley, Narelle Simpson, Lara Davenport, and me with my hair growing back!

Essence January 2006

 

Re-finding the Essence 

 

   “We will either find a way, or make one.”

-Hannibal

 

            I truly feel that though I may seek out reasons for falling short in my performances, I should never look for an excuse. The difference in a reason and an excuse, to me, is in how I approach the issue. It’s when I begin to make excuses for my performance that I realize I need to make a change on some level. I found myself at crossroads earlier this year, and I’ve since picked up and made a total change. To re-find my essence, that fire that drives me forward and makes me love and appreciate every moment in my life and swimming career, I had to return to a place where my confidence soars and re-establish myself and my desires.

            Returning to Florida to train with Gary Hall Jr.’s Race Club was my answer, and I felt my fire ignite immediately upon my return. I spent a month training and glowing under the Florida sun (quite literally after time out on the boat!) and regaining my faith, confidence, power and speed. It was a month that enabled me to set myself up mentally, physically and emotionally for the coming season.

            My next step in re-finding my essence has been to return home to Sydney and join a new squad and coach. Narelle Simpson and I had been chatting for months about my return to Sydney, and it’s been a fabulous decision! Not only have I maintained the golden tan I sported in Florida, but also I love my environment, my sessions, my training plan, and training partners!

            For me to re-find my deep motivation, joy, and burning desire I had to step outside my comfort zone, return to a place where I felt confident, make fairly drastic changes in my regime, and trust in myself and my goals. It has always been scary for me to leap out into the unknown, trusting only my heart and instincts; but each time in the past I’ve taken that risk I’ve benefited from the experience in countless ways.

            I’ve reset my standards, re-established myself, and re-found my essence. My burning flame is brighter than ever before, and I’m excited at the prospects of my career and life. I’m happy to wake up with a smile, knowing I’m giving myself every opportunity physically, mentally and emotionally. Anything more in life and swimming is a beautiful bonus!